Steel Stairs

Steel Stairs
by me(whatever)
to this song: Now or Never

I flop up these steel stairs.
Each step leading to heaven.

Never found.
I stare at the barbed holes
through to the ground far away.

"You may lean on me"
when did I remember such a thing?
Why?

There is silence all around me,
I climb and climb
holding desperately onto the rail.

A voice ahead of me,
I rush to separate a past from the future.
I can only think of this existence.
Between the lines

Eyes all around,
I feel them bearing me down.
Starting to run,
I realize the panting of breaths
are counting down.

Invisible hand
pulls me up this unending staircase.

I can't live alone,
like this.
Take me with you.

The snow falls,
the autumn winds,
spring rains
our summer.

Pushing the replay on my life,
I'm reliving every single moment
in each of these steps I climb.

I searched for a light to the future,
when I finally found you
through sweat, blood, tears,
you slipped away.

I halt on the steel,
staring at the sky backwards to the aether.
I will find you once again.

all the wounds littering this worthless body
I've lost everything

From the top of the building
I stare out to heaven.
Our heaven.

"Don't give up yet,"
I lean out.
My heart is fluttering
like a swallow in its cage

I will open the door,
let it fly
to heaven to meet once again
you and your beautiful voice.

"Stop."
"Don't run"
"Keep on"

A breeze flows out from the cracks in the landscape
I breathe in.
My eyes closed.
Ears open.
This is my life.

Sliding down the banister.
Replaying each of those steps.
I came this far
Only to fall

Where are you?
I don't know where to find you.
Just a smile,
just a glance
just a touch
just a sound

Give me a hint,
where have you hidden?
in this hide-and-seek game
we've been playing
all our lives.

One more step,
and over the ledge.

Running to you
falling to heaven.

I won't die yet,
even if the skin covering me
shrivels up and permeates.

Leave it all behind.

Sliding down the banister.

down,
down,
down,

away from the steel steps.
Here,
we begin again.

This was the truth,
in your teary eyes
that day.

There will always be a way.

Again,
Again.

No matter how many times we're lost.

We'll keep living.
no matter how many times we're destroyed.

down,
down
down.

Sliding down the banister.

Two swallows in the sky.

Before the Dandelion dies

Things I need to do before I die, NEED TO!

*See fireflies
*Stand in a graveyard at midnight on Halloween night
*Have an adventure
*Witness/create something impossible
*Write my story of the sky
*Combine the twins inside myself
*Take random pictures of places, at least a thousand of them, and have a whole book of them
*Fold a thousand cranes
*Travel the world
*Become a wanderer
*Find my roots
*blow another umbrella inside out
*Find my own Shangri-la
*Jump through the cracks in time
*Discover love
*Sing as loud as I want without caring if anyone hears it
*Finish my scrapbook
*Help someone
*learn how to argue without my tongue swelling up, and Hold to it
*Become as stubborn as a weed (if I was one, I'd be a dandelion)
*Get rid of my robotic 'habits', and become an actual person
*Find a four-leafed clover
*Get a wish on a shooting star before it vanishes
*Get a house all to myself and paint the walls all crazy, decorating it strangely too
*Learn all types of mythology and different fairy tales
*Own my own black cat
*Explore some kind of abandoned building
*Have a solitary supper in the mountains at night, just watching the moon
*Watch the fireworks from beginning to end
*Sneak out for something important
*Run away
*Read all the books ever written by Diana Wynne Jones
*Fly on a hot air balloon
*Never stop

Steps for My True Awakening

Steps for My True Awakening:

1. Chocolate
2. Chocolate Icecream
3. Hot Chocolate
4. Chocolate
5. Chocolate
6. Chocolate
7. Japanese Music
8. Petting dog
9. Belly full of Chocolate
10. Scent of Orange
11. Take a silver shovel and catch a star
12. Mispeling
13. Petting dog
14. Something incredibly cheesy
15. Something Random
16. Hot Chocolate with marshmallows
17. write poetry
18. Chocolate,
and lastly,
19. End at the number 19.