Evening on Rainy Bridge

Evening on Rainy Bridge
by me(whatever)
to: miku(nekobolo)-オノマトペメガネ

walk, walk,
walking on across a rainy bridge,
I feel nothing
as the cold nature continues straight through me.

tip, tap,
a young man with an umbrella,
waiting excitedly for his yet-to-be-seen lover,
he doesn't see me as I pass through.

mew, mew,
mewing pitifully in a soggy cardboard box
black and white kitten
wet and abandoned, I have no warmth to offer.

beep, beep,
people who don't see others
rushing along in their metal containers
I can't stop them even if I jumped.

sway, sway,
rustling in the chilly breeze
boughs weighed with gray twilight blues,
a ways away where I can't touch.

whip, whip,
forgotten orange tape tied up above
fighting against itself to stay still,
like that man who was here one day, then gone.

sing, song,
mimicking birds, air, human invention,
wind chimes twinkle quietly in that house far off,
echoing in a soundless place from within me.

Demons Dream in Carnival Lullabies

Demons Dream in Carnival Lullabies
by me(whatever)
to: ateotu- In a Rainy Town, Balloons dance with Devils (English version)

In the outskirts of town,
there's a circus frisking about.
Child in pajamas, crouching in the trees,
"what a pretty one you are!"

a gentle melody from the box,
a lullaby stretched from bony fingers.
tied around the balloon strings,
the devil wears a smile in the night.

Crying in the clear moon is a guardian,
as the child runs home with a friend embraced.
Warmly tucked away in the woods,
sleeping beauty awakes and sings, broken.

the rain springs in the early morning,
whispering in your ear as an afterthought.
Fallen angel dances the ballet in circles,
holding her breath so she won't be noticed.

If you return once, the tents have floated away,
crunching popcorn underneath your shoes.
winding trails peer at the child through dark eyes,
"what a pretty one you are!"

World Domination

World Domination
by me(whatever)
to: rin/len- World Domination How-To

In a sea of desks and chairs,
I'm drowning in the words you spit out.
No matter what I do, I can't find it
where did I hide it again?

(I left it in a glass I think)

I can't remember that man's name,
I think it was Caesar.
What was he even trying to do,
when he picked up the yellow death?

If you asked me a single question,
I would reply with "nothing".
the mirrors with different faces are laughing,
mocking me for the mask I overlaid with truth.

I guess it has nothing to do with you,
just like you said to me that one day.
The demon that I finally caught sight of
was mine alone and not yours.

(though it wore your face)

I can't remember my own name,
I think it was *******
Where was Julius trying to go,
when he picked up his legs and ran?

I want to promise from this day forth,
an artificial banner to wear for the world.
Don't find out, Don't see beyond,
Don't look for me anywhere.

(though I wish you would try)

We've only ever had ourselves,
I can't believe I ever thought I owned anything more.
Beyond this page are never ending questions,
from you to me to no one.

I can't remember your name,
I think it was...
Why are the idle armies,
spending their free time in homeroom?

there's no one in front or behind me,
not even a soul to wave the white flag.
though you might tell me, I can't pick up the shattered glass,
afraid to slice myself on the pieces.

If they call me a control freak,
where am I supposed to go when I'm lost?
the weapons you conceal at the bottom of your lungs,
are the only ones I can't defend against.

(though that's why you use them)

ask me a question,
and I'll say "I don't know".
But the truth is that both of us
already do.

I don't want to remember that man's name,
the one Julius Caesar.
Seven billion globes spinning endlessly,
and I can't claim name to a single one.

Personal Fable

Personal Fable
by me(whatever)
to: Kenshi Yonezu- Eine Kleine

I'd like to write a letter to you,
full of all the gratitude and thanks
for the simple reason of your existence.
Yet when I write things, or say things
they always end up sounding like lies.

Was it you or me who was lost?
at the moment of our meeting,
I can't even remember what I felt then.
This daily life is sucking up and washing away
all the treasured pain and joy from the past.

I want to tell you everything I'm thinking
I want to tell you everything I'm feeling,
for the simple reason of your existence.
Yet when I write things, or say things
they always end up sounding like lies.

The night is hiding the storm inside ourselves,
and neither of us can hear the heartbeat of the other.
No matter if the doorbell rings on the other side,
there's always artificial words and expressions
yet I still wish to be by your side.

You were always so much braver than I was,
full of a type of kindhearted innocence like the dawn.
If I hide anything from you,
it wasn't simply because I was a coward,
but because I am a cruel person.

Once I said hello after all these years,
the phone buzzed and I could hear someone besides myself
repeating those endless spirals, focus and communicate.
who are you? who am I? once we figured it out,
it has all turned into a farewell.

I want you to tell me everything you're thinking
I want you to tell me everything you're feeling,
for the simple reason of your existence.
Yet perhaps when you write things, or say things
you feel like they end up as lies.

Chronic Absence

Chronic Absence
by me(whatever)
to: Kenshi Yonezu(Hachi)- Go Go Ghost Ship

rabbit pops out of a sack bag
"absent again today?" it asks
yet no one can see it except for me,
as it unlocks it's rib cage for the dog.

gnat squeaking from the shadows of 7 am,
"study with me?" sitting on that textbook
yet no one can see it except for me
as it smears its nervous system through the pages.

goldfish splashing in the depths of a blue messenger,
"won't you take me somewhere nice today?" it gurgles,
yet no one can see it except for me
as it drowns in the air on the floor.

mouse scribbling with a collection of #2 pencils,
"do you remember your childhood dreams?" read the message,
yet no one can see it except for me
as it tears away it's neck for the cat.

finch hopping along a silent, dusty cellphone,
"who are you, a lie or truth?" it chirps in song,
yet no one can see it except for me
as it crashes it's tiny body to the mirror.

Bacteria still amongst the flower painting,
"don't you care about me anymore?" is something it can't say,
yet no one can see it except for me
as it withers and rots without a host.

Matches

Matches
by me(whatever)
to: Trees in our Homeland

The world is white
I held hands with you
in the endless horizon
where the sky meets the land.

I might have felt kindness,
however much I've fought against it.
Yet I still can hear nothing
on the other side.

Who are you?
that appears from the pitch black darkness
I've been swallowed in
ever since my youth

I've seen a layered flower
scenting my dreams with seeds.
What will they sprout into?
the stars fall from the night.

Don't forget me,
In this empty world
alone since birth,
and until then...

and now there is only
the quiet sound of snow on snow.
Purify my sleep with warm illusions,
let me go to where you are.

"It's far" "It's cold"
please remember me
as you saw me back then
until now...

Geese

Geese
by me(whatever)
to Natsume Yuujinchou- kimi ga yobu namae

what do you see in your eyes?
the geese flock around the bread crumbs,
but never close enough to touch.
A hunched back, a white whispy head,
a warm peach twilight, a shadowed pond.
The reflection of a thousand flowing clouds
linen on the water, broken by an arch across
flowers in the gateway
rustling valley grass.
I stepped through in a dream,
black buckled shoes,
and stood behind you.
there was no conversation,
no stirring of your outline,
yet you felt my presence, as I felt yours.
and once the whistle blew,
and the birds lifted all at once,
your figure shimmered in the flurry,
disappearing without a sound.

Who were you?
I could see through your eyes
yet I couldn't see you.