New years eve of Nya

Nothing much happening much for New years eve. I wonder if we'll get some non-alcoholic sparkling stuff again. That also seems a sort of tradition at our house, along with a shrimp dinner or something. New years was never really our family's forte, though. We're just kind-a boring when it comes to this holiday. Whatever. I cleaned and earned twenty bucks at my granny's at least.

Here's a poem for you, in dedication of Nyan cat. If you don't know what that is, then go look it up on Google or YouTube. Here's a link to a YouTube video of it: Nyan Cat- original. Some 3 remixes of this song are also on my play list at the bottom of the page, around #55. Check it out!


Nyan Cat Poem

Nya Nya Nya
Nyan the kitty cat,
with your poptarty body,
you will never scat.

Nya Nya Nya
rainbows fly through the sky,
coming mysteriously from your *bleep*,
the smell would make me cry.

Nya Nya Nya
as you're bursting into space,
for 10 hours or even more,
You keep a pretty good pace.

Nya Nya Nya
your dedicated fans are there,
as well as your dedicated haters,
I guess you better take care.

Nya Nya Nya
this poem is pretty lame,
but as long as you are f*rt*ng,
I'll have you take the blame.

The Christmas Presents of waffles, Chinese food dreams, and rolling down hills

I'm super bored, so I decided to post something up. I visit my blog more than anything else anyways. I have plenty of things to write about: Christmas, waffles, dreams, chocolate, rolling down hills, and the like. Where to start?

I guess I'll start with Christmas. It's kind-of a general rule people have to talk about it first thing. My Christmas was fine, what else can I say? I got a crap load of presents, never expected that. They're expensive presents too, like the computer I got from my father. It was totally random, but I guess that's how life is. Random. I also got a whole lot of chocolate, yummy, dark chocolate too. Really dark. Good stuff. And all the other stuff was good too, like games, junk food, The movie 'Tales from Earthsea', sewing stuff from my Granny, Cardcaptor Sakura stickers, a flashlight, and a 6-pack of Ramen! I hear one of my presents is still coming too, though I pretty much already know what it is. I didn't even have to snoop. Yeah, my mother is very subtle when it comes to those things. For future reference, this was the Christmas Charlie ripped up my Oldest brother's mail box (he's in the navy), got a chocolate truffle inside, and ate a whole box of croissants. We found the damage when we got home from the one hour of Church. Wow.

Next up is Waffles. Waffle is my plant. I named him that because that's what he is. He's an exotic purple waffle. Here's a link to what one of them looks like: Google photo . I got him in the first place because my brother( Mass and Inertia again) was getting a plant and I wanted one too. The first time I saw Waffles he was in pretty bad shape. I guess that's why I got him. I'm not a super duper plant lover, but I knew no one else would get him because of how withered he looked and he would just die like that. Made me a bit sad, and reminded me a bit of myself, so I got him. I didn't know he bloomed flowers either. When he did, it gave me a pretty happy surprise, since I thought he was just all leaves year round. Here's a picture of the blossom: google photo . It's a cute little white flower that only blooms around spring and summer. Waffles isn't withered anymore.

Yesterday I went on a walk with my brother(M. and I.) and sister taking Charlie up to a park at my grandma's house. Jake, a big, fat old lard of black lab followed us, giving Charlie a playmate. Jake didn't need a leash, he kind-of just waddled behind us wandering everywhere. Charlie did need a leash, that bad puppy.  When we got to the park my brother let him off the leash, and he bounded around after the ball-rope we threw down the hill. He tired out pretty quickly, but not before I got to roll down the hill twice! The world was truly spinning! It gave me a bit of a head-ache though. It seems I've been talking a lot about Charlie haven't I?

I had a weird dream last night. It might've been because I went to bed really late at like 1:30 A.M., or maybe it was because I was kind-of hungry. But, anyways, this dream was about me going to a Chinese restaurant with my Dad (like I did for my birthday!) and not having any money or something. In exchange, my Dad said that I would tap-dance. Tap-dance. Like I can tap-dance. I did take some like 5 lessons last year from my mom(and we got my shoes for my birthday last year for $30), but no-way could I tap-dance! But I did it anyways, not even really tap-dancing. The people accepted it as payment(?) and we got the right to stuff as much food as we could into a small tube of plastic. Then I woke up at 12:30 PM. Super random, yet I understand some of why I had that dream.

Before I go, I believe I have to show you some music. Today it's Claris. I haven't explored Claris very much, but I truly like their music. Here is Irony, the opening song to 'Ore no Imouto ga konna ni kawaii wake ga nai' ('There's no way my little sister could be this cute' or something like that) an anime about a brother who helps his little sister with her secret of being an otaku. Another song is Connect, opening song to anime 'Mahou shoujo madoka' (magical girl madoka). Another good song I just found today is Drop (shooting star remix). I haven't been able to find the original version. It's good though.

I believe I have finished my random rambling. Have a nice day!

Stars who Fall in Love

It's Christmas Break.....and Christmas is in like two days. Well, I still gotta get a good present for my big brother(mass and Inertia). I just need money.  Ugh.

I haven't done practically anything this entire break. I mean, it was my birthday and all, but it wasn't much of a big deal. My birthdays are always fun, but I'm just getting too used to them. I got a an Mp3 player that has a touch-screen from my father, and 20 bucks for mp3's on Amazon from my mother. I  also went and got Asian food. Twice. The sushi was delicious. Especially the fish eggs on top:)*everybody cringes*.

Today I had so much pent up energy (which is why I'm writing at midnight), that I knew I wouldn't be able to fall asleep. Because of this, I took off at 11:00 to the nearest park with my brother's dog (Charlie) and ran around several time until I felt exhausted but not quite. My brother also caught up with me when I got there and also ran a few times. Charlie, of course, was a bad puppy and kept running in our way and biting at us(well, mostly my withered sleeves). I loved it. The night was beautiful. I love night-time. It's a bit scary sometimes, but there is a calmness that erodes that fright and just makes you feel a little bit happy. Stars are my favorite thing of all.

I have a question for you. Do you think you'll ever Fall In Love ?


To the Star whom I've fallen In Love

My words alone cannot express,
How I've always thought of you
alone; you reached out to me,
kissing me with drops of dew.

I always thought that I,
could never reveal my weakness's to anyone
that the world was my enemy,
You told me not to run.

When I'm asleep I miss you,
holding on with bitter fears,
I stay awake only to see you,
carrying all my tears.

When all of my stories fall into place,
maybe I'll see you again
I'll practice my wishes and Dreams,
and if your sad, I'll send them then.

Living In Busy Passion

Life is freak'in busy right now for me. Too much crap going on. That always happens before school breaks. The teachers load all the homework on you, and you can't hold it all up. Relief is coming now, though, I only have to survive tomorrow, and I'll be FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *ahem*, anyways, hopefully I will live.

I don't have much time, so I'll be brief. Today I'll talk about Utada Hikaru. She is one of my very very favorites. I can't believe I haven't written about her yet. She can sing in both Japanese and English! Isn't that cool? My favorite song from her is Passion. If your a Kingdom Hearts fan you might recognize this song. In English, she sings this song as Sanctuary (Kingdom Hearts 2 opening) I still like Passion better, though. I have so many favorite songs from her, it would take some time to put all the links down here, so check out my music links list or playlist at the bottom of the page. Just so you know, my second favorite is Blue, and my third is Stay Gold. I love Utada Hikaru. She's just so awesome.


" Living" written 12/12-14/11

I've ended up here;
in the place where my wishes were born
smiling kindly
where my hope is sworn.
I began.

Before now, I know,
I was asking questions to the rain
wondering silently
and if the moon would ever wane
I hoped.

I have been alone,
trying in vain to keep my hands dry,
secretly believing,
confiding in the lake of the sky.
I cried.

There is never an end,
 to the beautiful illusions in my mind
concluded living
and if I continue to be kind.
I dreamed.

When there is no way out
I look endlessly for a beginning
unbearable decisions
I choose, though I'm not winning.
I searched.

There is no such dream,
which survives only by itself,
carrying tomorrow
I only want to be free from myself.
I fought.

All of me together,
we find forgotten melodies,
to goodbye's,
to hellos on blue eternities.
I loved.

Falling on asphalt,
I flew through to determination,
traveling beats,
I won't stop this creation.
I Live.

Season of Flight

*wrote this listening to Suga Shikao- Sanagi. It sounds cooler if you listen to the song while reading it. (P.S. It's also at the bottom of the page- #31 in my playlist)


Season of Flight
11/22-23/11 Tues-wed.
by whatever

Cold has become a season of life,
Even if I held your hand,
I would still be frozen over,
Waiting to land.

Even if I believe in who I become,
I will still forget your name.
Simply waiting has never been enough;
enough to blame.

My memories have been interpreted,
in so many changing ways,
and if I spread my wings again,
time would run in days.

These lies aren't the only reason why I know,
and feeling half-alive to fall,
Will that sound come fly with me?
I am not a doll.

Then if I freeze over to change views,
and never feel anything again,
someday I would bloom those colors,
and a letter I would send.

This single dream I own,                                                                               
is the only one I have hope for,
and when I spread my wings again,
I will have hope for more.

The Secret worlds of Thanksgiving, Ghibli neighbors, and 1 year of 100

So today was Thanksgiving. I think the reason people just skip Thanksgiving is because it's not a holiday with too much excitement. And it's right smack in the middle of the two most exciting holidays of the year. Well, that's kind-of what happened to me today. We went to my grandma's house, ate turkey, Lot's of pie, played a few games, visited with our relations, and after all that I fell asleep. I must be getting old. I mean, only old people actually fall asleep after eating turkey. It was the turkey. It attacked me with sheep jumping over fences. Noooo!, I'm not even 20, yet why? I've even seen white hairs! It got me when my guard was down and I was reading.

I think it's been about a year since I started writing in this blog. An English assignment turned into my personal diary. Well, not exactly personal. I have gotten more than 100 views! Thanks everybody for reading my weirdness! I hope you like it. I'm still pretty inexperienced, so be patient with me, I'm still figuring all this technology stuff out. Yeah! How weird it is....

I really love all the Ghibli movies. I've watched practically all the ones done by director Hayao Miyazaki. Anyways, a good, cute, comedy film that most people ignore is My neighbors the Yamadas. It's pretty much just about a normal family, and the animation isn't what you would call "detailed", but it's one of the funniest movies I've ever watched. The song I want to show you is from that film. It's the ending song. Here:Quit being alone. Hope you enjoy!



Secret World Mon. 11/21/11

Immediately,
I follow,
a path of dreams,
covering pain and grief.

Suddenly,
I take,
a small, fluffy hand,
My best friend.

Beautifully,
I feel,
Millions of shooting stars,
I reach out.

Impatiently,
I hope,
while falling into clouds,
that my alarm clock would die!

*didn't write this to any particular tune. This is my love of the dream world I've created in my head. Hope you enjoy!

Clear 11/23/10

*wrote this exactly a year ago! Listening to this song:A girl from wonderland (Yobi) There is also a version of this song with lyrics (It's also a movie trailer) Here: I remember (Yobi) If you ever get a chance to watch this movie, do it. It's beautiful.

Clear 

When Holidays come around.
I still stay myself,
a soul can be changed
to a distant beat.

The leaves as their falling
The wind in the sky
I'll wrap a gift and
ship it to the clouds

to another world,
a heart of light
a bird of blue
A melody of hope

remember your gentleness
the innocence when you were born
quiet,still, and continuous
was your life

Never once
could I sail away
away from here
inside me and you, deep

Maybe I'm not there
Could it be?
the sun is colors
that save our lives

The voice of sorrow
Heard from you
could be given as rain
that helps clean the air

although I'm simple
don't give me heartache
elements of wonderland
comets to shined stars.

Say the WAY
into our bliss
cries into the distance
from wings of feathers

Meadows of beauty
light of morning on the dew
a new beginning
create everything

Could I be more?
potential violet
Understood?
Scenes on the horizon

Breeze on spirits
whispering destiny
living as clear
As Love.

Dreams of Horror Stories, Pets, and Star Melodies

There seems as if there is absolutely nothing in the world to write about. Absolutely nothing. Aren't I the boring one? The world is moving out there, and I have nothing to offer except my weirdness. And Poems. I wish someone would leave a comment..*sigh*. Though, I have no idea what they would say. Interesting. The person who commented on my first posts was my friend. Well, I guess nobody knows about this blog. I still can't decide if I want them to or not. Hmmmm..................

I've been having weird dreams lately, but I can't remember them. However, the ironic thing is that I actually remember having them. I just can't remember them. Has that ever happened to you? OH, my beautiful silent audience! Answer Meeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But if you don't, it's okay k? I have an arising suspicion that my dreams have something to do with my sleek, black, emerald eyed, arched back male cat, and my brothers brown dog. However, I don't know for sure. Speaking of dreams, I think I actually have created an unconscious world of them in my sleep. I'll wake up one morning, unusually remembering the dream I had, and, as my amazed mind whirls, realize I've had that dream countless times before. It's pretty cool. But weird. Well, weird is my middle name. Oh, wait what was it again?

I have to start writing my horror story again. I haven't written it in a few weeks because of stupid schoolwork. This horror story is actually something my older brother, (Mass and Inertia), came up with for me to write. We were talking about zines, and it sounded cool to me. He told me I should write a short story zine about something. I took his opinion of on what, and as typically as someone could, he said horror. He loves horror for some reason I can't understand. I used to like horror when I was a little kid, but now as I have gotten older, I like my beauty sleep more. Anyways, about this horror story I'm writing, I'll post it up after I finish it. I won't tell you anything about it beforehand. That would be a very bad spoiler. (That is of course, if anyone in the world is even reading this.)

I suppose I have to post some more music. The peeps I shall talk about today are called FreeTempo. I like some of their music, but some of their music is like 'ughh'. But, anyways, I shall not complain, since I like them. my favorite song would probably be stars, and right after it Beautiful World. Melody is also one of my very favorites. If you have time you should also check out Dreaming and Sky High. They have some cool beats. Even my mother likes them, though I suppose that's not a very good argument. Whatever, here I have five songs for you. Enjoy them!

Falling, Autumn World

I haven't written in so long, and so many things have happened! I had a concert on Monday, had a lot of stupid homework, and forgot to write about fall break. I play the clarinet, and am pretty good in my opinion. The concert was awesome! I saw one of my friends from high-school (a year older than me) there. It was the end of the term this week, and I was swamped in homework. I still am too. I just don't want to do it. Fall break last week was pretty interesting, though a little weird. I went to my sisters concert, slept over at my Granny's house, and spent the rest of the time driving around in the car watching for yard sales. That was the exhausting part.

So here I have some new music for you! They're hard to find, but I love them. I wish I could show you all my favorite songs, but here's my very very favorite from them: Autumn Leaves- Searching For. It's actually English, which is unusual for me at least. I usually listen to Japanese music. But whatever. Another good one from them is Autumn leaves- I believe. My favorite songs are from the "Shake it!" Album. Very cute.


*Wrote this poem listening to this song: School Food Punishment - After Laughter

Change the World
written Thurs. 10/27/11
By Me

Tomorrow, perhaps I'll be on time,
to those mysteries that are never solved,
and give them my stubborn opinion,
watching their facades become dissolved.

My whole life revolves around,
contradicting everything from A-to-Z,
Though, even when I agree with you,
I feel something's bigger to see.

So, How well do you know the back of your hand?,
Do you even have time to notice it?,
I wonder when that smile became pasted on your face,
because it won't become lit?

I'm going to change this world now!
I can't wait till I give up again,
Ripping opinions up till there's nothing left,
I'll charge when I count to ten!

I've always broken things then recreated them,
and sometimes left them the way they are.
And this is when I become the future,
The nebula I've created will become a star!

A melody created of blurry swirls,
sweeps away genuine imagination,
So keep yourself clear and awake,
Here is my miracle mission!:

I will change the world!!!!

Gothic Alice, lucky pennies, and chocolate sushi!

There's nothing really exciting happening lately, and I think that's the reason I haven't been writing much at all lately. It's just my life on an endless circle of mediocre events. Maybe I'll just talk about something normal, but I don't know what. Ugh, it's hard for me to carry on conversations for this reason. I'm just impatiently waiting for my otaku purchases from ebay and amazon to arrive, and at the moment (as usual) I'm hungry.

I really love dark chocolate (have I mentioned this before?), and yesterday I forced my mother to buy me some yesterday. I got these Ghirardelli raspberry filled dark chocolate squares, and a bar of "a touch of sea salt" flavored Lindt dark chocolate. Delicious! It's all so creamy, and I can't tell which one I like more. And that's my mediocre event. So there.

For music I have too many choices to choose from. I suppose I'll do the cutesy, j-pop, 3-some Perfume!  They're so adorable! I have too many favorites to choose from, so I'll just do a few. Here's a remix of Glitter that I really like: ssBullet Rmx, and Seventh Heaven- live. I suppose my favorite's from them would have to be fushizen na girl, (I only have a preview of this song, because the full versions always getting "deleted" off from Youtube for copyright) and Natural ni koi shite

Holloween is next month and I need to start designing my costume. I'm debating between a gothic Alice in wonderland, star-witch, or joker( the card ones with the cool hats....that's why I want it). As things stand now, the best bet lies on the gothic Alice one. I've already drawn the basic idea on paper (anime style of course!), and I think it's super duper cute! Now I just need to design the other costumes, and finish editing them. If you have any good ideas or opinions you can leave a comment.

I found a lucky penny a few days ago. It was when I was waiting at my bus stop. I picked it up, and it was all shiny! It was printed in 2010 (so it's new), and the back is different than other pennies. Instead of lincoln, it has some kind of shield looking thing (I need to look at it more closely), and it's weird because it's upside down. All the text is I mean, from the head part of the penny. It's kind of weird, but I like it that way. It's a lucky penny! -I feel so kidish.

And that is pretty much all the very *exciting* things that happened to me during the week. That is except for this awesome poem I wrote on the 'letter to parent' part of my student led conference folder. : )


Sushi

by ME THE AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

And here it begins:

I really like sushi,
it's my favorite food.
Mommy if you read this
please don't be rude,
Go buy me some sushi,
I'll have a good mood.
Some people say sushi is
disgusting and crude,
Because of the raw fish,
it's nasty and sued.
But to me it's just like
a good-looking dude!,
So buy me some sushi,
I tell you it's not crude,
'Cause sushi is
my favorite food.

And then it ends.

Mixed Melting Summer Intentions

*(wrote this part on 9/2/11)

There's nothing much to write about, but I'm sick. I should be at school right now, but......hehehe. Well, even if I hate school, I hate being sick even more. It's just a small cold, but I feel so gross. Anyways, life is the usual. Not very interesting, not "extremely" boring. I think my family and I are going somewhere, but I don't really know where(I'm pretty oblivious). So yeah. -(Arches National Park is where we went).

So here is the music part. After thinking what I would put down, I decided on vocaloids again. I usually like real people singing, but some of those songs are pretty good. I found the piano versions of two songs, and I was just stunned by how awesome it was(if you have a different opinion, that's fine). Here is the original songs; Chaining intention, and Meltdown. I just love the music videos, and here are the piano versions; Chaining intention-piano , and Meltdown-piano. When I first heard the piano version of Meltdown, I thought it was a completely different song until I listened in further. So there's your music.

Summer is now over, though it's still hot out there. I took a picture of a sunflower with representing summer in mind, and it turned out really good. I will try to put it on here when my camera is back in order, so just wait till then.

 *(Everything from now on is current)

I started writing a story again. It's the same story I have been thinking up since fourth grade. It's kinda weird, but I just love dreaming about it. It's about a red-headed girl who falls through the Earth into another world. There's a war going on in this other world, and she has to resolve it. There's a lot more to it than that, but that's just the basics. I've thought up countless beginnings to that story, and have tried to write it countless times. I just hope I continue this one.

I haven't written in about a month! It feels weird... It's because I've been busy with school. I had 5 tests this week! One for every day! It has been such a huge pain, and it doesn't help that my cat has been waking me up every night at 4 in the morning. He wants me to let him out, or feed him, or pet him, or wash out his water bowl. Ugh. I love him though : ).  I've been tired every day because of this (actually it's probably because I go to bed so late). It's tough being awesome.

Laters!

Fish Schools to the freezing Sea's

School has started, and it's more tiresome than I remember from 3 months ago. I'm hoping I'll get used to it.  Some of my teachers are penguins, and others are bald-headed, but most of them are just the same.  Anyways, I have some random music for you as always.  If you know about vocaloids, then you have probably heard this song before.  Saihate is a very beautiful piece of sadness.  What I found here on YouTube, however is a ukulele version with a cover voice by someone. I think I might like it better than the original. The piano version in the suggestions is also very mentionable.

Have you ever heard of a band named School Food Punishment? For their name, they actually have some serious songs. They are not to be messed around with. I like Butterfly Swimmer, and Sea-Through Communication. I wrote the poem underneath listening to Butterfly Swimmer, so the best way to read it is to listen to the song(while reading). I also like Futuristic Imagination and Light Prayer.  I'm tired.



Snowy Sea 8/25/11

Threw in by tidal moons,
and running as fast as you can,
your cold, visible breath sinks in the sky;
following the wind-blowing fan.

I remember a feeling called love,
I remember, because I want to change.
Swimming in that freezing aura,
I let go when I was in range.

It's not by chance I am here now,
though I stumble in puddled footsteps
quivering like ripples inside-out,
feeling white rain drop into depths.

Raining cats and dogs in Shangri-la (and chocolate)

School starts next week, and I'm still in a stage of non-believing. Oh....my beautiful season of summer...*tears up*.  Whatever, I'll believe in justice and hope for an opening. (It is, after all, the sly and patient that win). I practically didn't anything this summer. Ha ha...

Well, a lot can can change in a week after you've just written. You just have to start thinking about it. Since last week, my second eldest brother got a dog (puppy as they say). It's some type of brown laprador, and it has the worst gas(ugh, kill me now). I was actually against the puppy department, because we already have a cat that has adopted us. As it turns out, the cat doesn't like the dog, and the dog either doesn't care about the cat, or is really afraid of it. The cat has been turning up less, and the house has been smelling worse. I like cats better than dogs, but I can't say I really hate dogs. I grew up with a big one, after-all. I know a whole bunch of people like dogs better than cats because they're loyal, and care more. I actually like cats because they care less. They can't be used, they're independent, they can draw blood, and can run away. They remind me of myself, or what I would like to be like. (I guess that means I don't care about other people, ha-ha)

I recently finished watching an anime called Shangri-la for the second time. It wasn't very popular, but I loved it. Especially the aspect of being able to blow up a tank with a boomerang *smiles*. It was released in 2009, which makes the last time I watched it 2 years ago. I was really sad when today I couldn't find a way to read the manga in english.  When something isn't popular, it's practically forgotten (things, not humans, emo's).  But, anyway, the anime was awesome, even though a lot of other people disagree. So if your reading this, you just gotta watch it! There's even a hint of romance! I'm sooo a fan of Kunihito x Kuniko! Eeek! You can watch this series on http://sky7anime.net/anime-tv/shangri-la/, or buy the series on ebay for around 20 bucks. It's just so...awesome...*sighs with dreaminess*. (you can tell I'm a real anime fan just from this, you don't have to even know anything else about me!) I'm actually a closet otaku.

I need to eat some chocolate.

keys and locks abundant

The past few days I have been dragging my soul around with me, and I'm tired. Stuff has been happening, and I've been feeling pretty down.  But I did not make this blog to talk about boring sad stuff.  Today I was dragged by one of my family members to a boutique.  We were supposed to get gifts for some of my relatives that were visiting. We made these charm bracelets with keys and locks on them. They were adorable. But expensive.

I've been stuck on Suga Shikao for two days, and it will last for a while.  I really love afternoon parade and kono yubi tomare (stop at my finger). I put some links there so whoever reads this can listen to him to. It's just soo beautiful (tearing up). He's just freakin' awesome.

I was day-dreaming today(my most used hobby) and came up with a bit of a story while I was listening to music.  It kind-of resembles the host (tried to read but failed because of the lame-ness) , but not quite.  It was about a girl(me of course) who's spirit is being forced out of her body by an evil/another one.  She can't tell anyone whats going on because she doesn't trust anyone to believe her. She finds out that the way to get back into her body is to shock the other spirit/body. She finds out that if she is next to the guy she likes, it's easier to stay in her body.  But that also adds risk, because if she is next to that guy, and she is pushed out of her body, then how would the other spirit act?  She then goes to a school dance, and sits down next to the guy she likes. She is pushed out of her body.  Her spirit flies through a different guy, he feels and can hear her. He can't see her.  She tells him everything, and tells him to throw a pie at her body to shock her back.  When he does, it works and she is put back into her body, but everyone else is also shocked at how rude the guy is.  She shouts thank-you to everyone's surprise, and walks away. from that moment on, he always helps her, and of course they fall-in-love! She feels bad, though, because she's always causing problems for him. There are a whole lot of other issues, like how other people see whats happening, and what's really happening. There are also other scenes, like when she loses her spirit in english class, and the teacher is also involved (not that the teacher knows). Oh, and when she loses her spirit, her body becomes cold, and it's tough on her body, like her heart beat and stuff.  Yeah. It's a lot harder to write it down than think it. I didn't think it would take up this much room to write, whatever. I think it's really cute, though. What do you think? I didn't even tell you everything. But that's okay.


Locked Key

The world is a box of treasured hope
Not even wondering to open it, I stopped,
I looked at my past days and sighed
letting the passing cloud become sobbed.

It's walking by the pond that get's me down
Searching in the reflections for a suitable me
When I didn't find one, I became frusterated
and added some water no one else could see.

I can remember that tired night I saw that star
My chest became choked up, and I apologized
"I'm sorry you saw me," and I closed up
that I would never catch up is what I realized.

I want something to believe in
though I can't help but see the faults
if only I had pure eyes, then maybe
I could see the beauty in a stumbling waltz.

Now I don't need anything again
it's not a lie as usual water
I walked out into the city like a flea
The sun shined down and only got hotter.

Blue against an orange afternoon
marching on the gravel pathway
I remembered to look back
and saw a box unopened where it will stay.

Sky Bells mon. 6/6/11

* poem I wrote in June. One of my favorites.

Skybells ringing in a wistful night
echo to the other side of my mind;
the umbrella of a dream of sighs
and blank paper completely lined.

Misty music seeks for the moon,
and over a golden lake she glides,
running over long forgotten treasures;
covering reflections broken by the tides.

drops of rain step down from the clouds,
and holding hands with the wind;
she creates a clamped melody of blue
rippling stars, a sound that can't be thinned.

Quietly sleeping souls within a blanket of leaves,
and memories that flow as waves in the sea
feeling anew those gratitudes of hope,
knowing they will always be free.

Desiderium

It feels weird to read over the posts I did for my English class. They're really......lame. Anyways, nobody knows (yay, Suga Shikao! did anyone get that?) about this blog, and I think I intend to keep it that way. I'm a bit of a shy person, after all. I've been pretty bored lately, as it is summer, and I need to take a shower 'cause my hair is greasy(yuk). It seems Summer is coming to a rapid close.  It actually doesn't feel as bad as I thought it would be. I can deal with school, though it's tiresome. There's one question I'm dreading, though.  It's the ever classic " so what did you do this summer?" question invented by the teachers.  Like they're implying I actually Had to do something.  Isn't the point of summer to do nothing, and sleep in being the laziest person you possibly can?  Human logic is all backwards. Anyways, I'm changing the subject.

None of you know this except for my family, but I'm a huge fan of anime soundtracks. Of course that means I like anime too. A film can be decided in it's awesomeness because of the music, like a horror movie. Sound is not everything, of course, there also has to be the general shivers of art, humor, and above all epic cheesiness. And leading up to my main point, Here is Desiderium, which is from maho shoujo madoka magica. It gives me a nice feel. I also like Postmeridie. Just little 'ol life. You know? Anyways, I'm hungry, and I'm done writing for the moment. laters!

True Journey 7/26/11

I never knew how to begin,
alone with a beating summer
chasing a dream from a tiny stream
smaller from resolving heat

I can't go on forever,
though I can feel whenever
from my hand to the sky
and a blue afternoon
lifting off the clouds
a true self abounds
courageously into the sun

I also want to change
and find her, my other side
Journeys of my past
though little to abide

Orange rain in my window
running melodies of calm
never resting to hear
a painful downpour

* I wrote this listening to this song.  "Summer" by Joe HIsaishi (from the film Kikujiro)

#4 The embarassing "I am Poem"

*poem I wrote in English.....I hate it, but we have to write it down in our blogs. Don't read it. I've written much better poetry.


I Am Poem/ The creative dreamer


I am a creative dreamer
I wonder in the rain
I hear bells and chimes in the wind
I see a starry world over oceans of blue
I want to write a story
I am a creative dreamer
I pretend I'm in another world
I feel an imaginary excitement
I touch the sea in the sand
I worry about being too anxious
I cry when I'm alone
I am a creative dreamer
I understand they touch the ground
I say I believe in myself
I dream about a starry ocean world
I'm trying to laugh over them
I hope I can excel again
I am a creative dreamer

#3 Whatomic / Holiday break

Well, the first thing that happened was my birthday. I celebrated it on Friday, December 17'th, the day we got out of school for Christmas Break. I didn't invite my friends over, because I'm in the state of mind that a birthday party is a present to your Friends instead, and that it's simply a pain. I didn't plan anything either, so it was a surprise when I got home from school and found the house clean, a cake in the oven, and Japanese groceries on the counter top (I love Asian food). That night I had a fun time with my family of misfits making and eating Sushi, miso soup, and chocolate cake. The sushi making was the funnest, and while a lot of you might cringe at the idea of eating raw fish, to me it was fine. Next, was Christmas. This actually isn't worth much writing about. You all know what Christmas is like. This year it was a bit different though. I celebrated it with only my sister, since my mom had to work(blegh) and everyone else was somewhere else. It was a pretty boring Christmas. Hmmm.........Whatever! Last was my brothers birthday on January 1'st. Yep, he's a New Years baby. I had a giant headache party Dec.31 and I felt about ready to kill him. At least I got Reese's :). And that, Ladies and Gentlemen, was my Holiday break. Not that you care.